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Rabu, 24 Desember 2008

Today,again,my darling is no online.
And soon I check my Gmail.
..he said dat he's now in USA wif his cousin,and he's using his cousin's laptop,so well.. ^^;
..hopefully he met Obama & say hi to him. ;P

look,Ive painted my nails to resemble as Christmas' colours~!! Xd

Today,I'm going to watch 'RM' wif Felissia.. But she's late for a few hours.. Maybe at 3 o'clock,because she was going to Sun Plaza wif her friend. O3o;;;
And.. There's sumthing wrong wif the 1st season DVD.. It's broken. -_-;
& I couldn't watch it,so I watched the 2nd season 'RM träumend' DVD.
But,Felissia herself prefers to make a wooden craft frum ice-cream stick.. So,this is the FIRST THING THAT MAKES ME UNHAPPY THIS DAY. (an opposite frum yesterday~)

SECOND,I just remember dat I have lots and lots of plushies order dat must have been finished by 4th January. T,T
..yeah,and when my bro told me dat we're going to the church at 7 o'clock,I quickly shower myself & changed my clothes..
THIRD,I wanted to wear black outfits,but my mum said dat the dress is so short.. WTF?! DOESN'T SHE REALIZED DAT HER DRESS IS ALSO SHORT?!? XU
and.. She made me wear a pink shirt wif a high-waisted skirt. A worst pairing of outfit in my life. T,T

And we went to the church by my bro's car.. Wow,what a beautiful church this is.. Sparkling like a blinking star while the sky is dark. X3
Using lift (huh?!) to the 6th floor.. And enters a big chamber door.
Inside,everyone which wears a Christmas hat,a white shirt & black trousers.. Said 'Merry Christmas..' & shakes their hand with ours.. This is gonna be a very joyful time. X33
A few minutes after I sit down (on dat cinema look-like red chair),one of my classmate,Erwin,came to my place & saying 'Merry Christmas' then shake hands wif my mum & me. O3o;;

When it begins,there's a female MC wif a few singer & a few ones dat were playing instruments.. Performing. They were singing a very beautiful choir.. Even though I know that all of those were just ordinary (Mandarin) Christian song.. ;3
They begin with..
'Joy to the world'
'Silent night,holy night'
& a few dat I couldn't see the title,and ended wif 'O holy night'.
Then,we pray..
..when praying,I suddenly couldn't help but teared.. It feels lyk,every words dat the priest said is trying to wash my heart & cleaned it up..
Now I realized..
How sinful I am.
How loathful I am.
How painful I am in His eyes..
I have.. Many things dat were wrong in my life..
And I don't want to do another.
Is this.. Sanctity of heart..?

After dat,the MC told us to shake hands wif everybody in our sides,saying 'Merry Christmas!'
& everyone did. Even a few bussinessman-look dat sits in front of me (I sit on the 2nd row frum front) shakes their hands with mine,saying 'Merry Christmas' wif a joyful smile.
..this is the first time dat the wall dat blocks our age status,sociality status and so on..disappears lyk this & brings joy to all of us in here.

After that,a priest came up the stage & talks there..
He tolds everybody to look up Lukas 18:18 on Holy Bible (but it seems nobody even brings it. ;P)..
and blah blah blah..
Then,a beautiful sentence dat I could remember from him, 'Jadi hidup bukan sekadar.. Hidup! Mati! Jadi debu! Jadi tanah! Berhenti! Titik! Tidak..!'
(I enjoyed his speech though) XDDD
Then suddenly,he says,'Siapa yg mo masuk Surga angkat tangan' ('Whoever wants to be in Heaven plz raise your hand'). So I raised mine. I was kinda disappointed dat the ones who raised up their hands were only a few from a lot of audiences here.. Are they nuts or whut?! XU
And.. When he asks,'Akankah engkau mau ikut dengan Tuhan,tanpa percaya yg lain? Mohon angkat tangan anda.' ('Will you follow Him,without believing others? Plz raise your hand.') and of course,a few frum a lot of people here..
And then,suddenly a girl (wif Xmas hat,white shirt,black trousers) told me (and anyone who raised up their hands) to fill up a formulir (wif Indonesia on a side & Mandarin on another).. Frum the two choices written on it,I choose 'I'm willing to welcome Him as my private saviour' (or else lyk dat),then written down my name,age,address,email & sign. Then I gave it back to her..

The priest suddenly told all dat raised up their hands to STAND UP & GO TO FRONT..!! I was really surprised yet challenged,so.. I walked to the front,followed by everyone dat were also raised up their hands.. INCLUDING ERWIN. XDD
As for my position now.. There's a man beside a woman beside me -- sobbing. He's crying.. I think he also feel touched by anything the priest told just now,so he raised his hand. What a honest person..

The priest prayed,special for all who raised hands. Then,all of the hand-raiser were not allowed to sit back yet -- we must go frum 6th to 3rd floor,all of us enters a room which looks like classroom,then the moderator told us to form a circle,then they begin praying.. With both Mandarin & Indonesia.. And it sounds lyk echoing inside my ear.. Xwx;;
Then,after finish,they told us to come again tomorrow,25 Dec.,at 9.30 a.m.. Then all of us get back to upstairs.
(These are the choirs singing when I return.)

Here's the title of (Mandarin) Christian song when I return:

'Now all is well' - David Clark
(I suceed in taking a picture 'till there's a NO-HP notice,but I've record the sound. XP)

'Can you hear the song' - David Clark

'Come just as you are' - Joseph Sabolick

(we could read the (Mandarin) lyrics of the songs on this monitor..)

(on 'Santa Claus Medley',the Santas bring presents & I record them. Xd)

..here's the video. Santa Claus Parade. XD

(..and this one is about the Santas throwing presents (snacks) to everybody,including the choirs~)

Then,it's time to go home. A last stand-up & shake-hands to all of those who feel the joy.
..but wait,the one wif teh BLUE SORBAN..!! It's my bro's friend.. Bro Suwandi~!!! XDDD

..so,my mum told me & my bro to take a picture.. ^^;;;

(from left to right : bro Suwandi - me - my bro - his friend. XP)
..then,I took a picture of the Christmas tree.. It's very beautiful... :O

then all of us went home,getting a rest for tommorow's sake~ X3

..E m m h A says,MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! ;D

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