...
It has been a long time since I'm not taking a private chat wif him..
..and,we did it again,this morning.. starts from this ± 9 a.m,until about 1 p.m,when I'm about to go to the new mandarin lesson place (wif my bro & his GF).
and.. I really missed him so much at the moment..
and I don't ever want to let go of this feelings.
I really loved him...
I don't wanna lose him..
It feels like I have an urge to come to the place where he's in,right now...
I want to see him again..
I want to throw up all my problems & laugh with him..
I want him to hug me..
..I want to own him,but I must be responsible of what will I get upside there..
Yes,it's a sanct-until-marriage problems.
I must keep myself in self-esteem (?!) until I could finally own him wholelly..
But I just can't bear this desire...
..oh please,I missed him like insane. T,T
..and yeah,because of this painful-sinful-feelings,now.. I'll post a lyric of a song dat could represent my feelings to him right now..
I'm hurt of this feelings & I'm really sad right now..
I missed him that my tears will drop off my eyes..
I really loved him... T,T
...AHH!!!!!!!!! *freed myself frum teh gloomy moment* Well,this is the lyric of Anggun - 'A Crime'. E n j o y ~ XP
♥click HERE to watch it in YouTube~ ♫ A Crime
(Anggun - Evelyn Kral / David Hallyday)
Do you remember?
When you were broke into my heart
When I surrendered
Let you turned me inside out
We were better than
Nothing could ever burn our dreams
Cause our love was bolder than
Million of thought of fears
It's a crime
You have no right to pretend that we
Still love
And it's a crime
To keep on lying that we are still
In love
Was it a winter?
Didn't we close and lock the door?
Is it a failure?
To think we were stronger than it all
Suddenly stranger
How could we let it go this far
Love is no longer
No longer who we are
It's a crime
You have no right to pretend that we
Still love
And it's a crime
To keep on lying that we are still
In love *heared the song*
*being sad again..*
*SIGH. T____________________T*
Oh well,so.. back to the newly-mandarin-condition.
The teacher is kinda lyk.. a grandpa (?!? O__o;;)
But he's more serious than my previous teacher. ;D
My bro & his GF is currently studying the 2nd lesson,and I woot-ed myself to jetted frum the 1st lesson to the 3rd lesson~!! I also could write faster than all of them~~~~~~~ XDDDDDDDDDDD
the teacher praised my bro,saying dat he's a little bit more clever than last week. Ouo;;;
and he praised my accent,but he said dat mah bro's GF's accent is more correct than mine.
soooooooooo faaaaaaaarrrrrrr,
1st grade = my bro's GF
2nd grade = me
3rd is my bro. *ROFLOL* XPPP
here's a lyric of Anggun - 'Garde Moi'.. (actually I prefer watch this on YouTube than 'A crime',because it has a louder stereo & its video is more clear~~ X3) ♥click HEEREE to watch it in YouTube..again~ ♫ A qui la faute?
Quand je les cherche, tes yeux me fuient.
Tu me défies, je m'oppose,
Sommes-nous devenus ennemis?
Je n'ai pas la clé,
De tous tes rêves de lendemain.
J'ai trop longtemps tu le sais,
Parcouru seul mes chemins.
Garde-moi,
Tu ne vas pas, comme ça, sans rien dire, partir.
On se fait mal,
En essayant de se retenir, encore.
J'ai déjà froid,
A l'idée de vivre ton absence.
Où trouver la force en moi,
Si t'aimer n'a plus aucun sens?
Pourquoi se mentir?
Faire semblant d'y croire à nouveau.
Qu'importe ce qu'on peut se dire,
On a usé tout les mots.
Garde-moi,
Tu ne vas pas, comme ça, sans rien dire, partir.
On se fait mal,
En essayant de se retenir, encore.
Encore...
Faire sembant d'y croire encore!
Garde-moi,
Tu ne vas pas, comme ça, sans rien dire, partir.
On s'est fait mal,
Est-ce qu'on pourra s'aimer sans souffrir?
Encore... hmmm..
*being gloomy again T____________T*
Huweeeee... I really missed hiiiiiiiiiiimmmmmmmmm.....................!!!!!!! ToT
Somebodeh heeelp meee ooout frooom thiiis feeeeeliiing!!!!!!!!!!! XB
*smacked my head to the PC monitor*
..OwyEAh!! NOw i'M FinE~!!!!!!!!! :D
(fine..?? This is crazy!! Eh,no.. this is... SPARTA!!!!!!! XDDDDDDDDD)
